Finals Week

It's finals week this week. And, I am definitely not ready for this. I only have one thing to worry about really...everything else should be easy. The one I'm worried about is Anatomy and Physiology. Just too much information, and...I missed majority of the classes since it is 8 am...Pretty good reason? Not really. I just need to get my ass out of bed.

Why can't I just do it?

I'm a college student who struggle to be one. I never had so much free time through out my whole school career. College definitely gives you a lot of free time. I go to a BIG university...big lectures...lots of diversity...definitely portrays what college is.

I'm a second year student, hoping to become a nurse. This is the season I apply for nursing school, and I have been slacking off a lot. EVEN with my school work, I've been procrastinating. This is basically what my whole life has been...LAZINESS when it comes to school work. I enjoy learning, but I enjoy not having do homework. I just don't know why I can't find the motivation to get things done when I know my parents are even my grandparents are paying a fortune for my to get an education.

I've waiting so long to the point that I have 3 and a half papers due this week along with 2 big tests...The only way for me to get to do things is when the test or the paper is due the next day.

I simply just need discipline...but again...it's not so simple.

I love my country...
And this doesn't give the right...
... to say that a place FUCKING sucks when...
...it belongs to someone...
...when it belongs to many...

Love your country...
But..
Why can't you be open to love others' places as well...
...BE OPEN...
...appreciate...
...accept what it is...

Express you opinion...
EXCEPT...
Please don't trash other people's precious things
...be the better person...

...Simply...don't be like THEM...them who trashed yours...

Why now?

I'm originally from the Philippines, and I moved to the U.S. when I was 12...and I'm now 20.
So I have been living in the US for 8 years and it has been 8 years since my family has applied for citizenship, and we received our letters from the IRS a few months ago that they would have to deny us.
What am I suppose to do now? I'm in the middle of my college career. My parents built a life here for me and my siblings. My brother already graduated from college as an engineer...he has a job, my sister just started college, I have a boyfriend who I LOVE...Why now?

I do miss home, but I have my life here right now...

Say what you want to say

Well, I want to say something

I started this blog because I feel like I am not being heard. I consider myself as someone who WOULD like to share thoughts, feeling, and ideas. And, the point is...I know I can do all of these...but am I being heard?

I personally like to listen to other people...well I can get tired from the same thing over and over again, but it is just common courtesy to give your attention to someone who WANTS TO BE HEARD.

Am I right?

Then, why the wont people do it?